“Veterans who served in combat are suffering from moral injury from either what they saw, did or were complicit in. Many can benefit from a new source of life energy in order to be living people again,” Anderson said. “This is a moral issue, a social justice issue, and something we need to address and offer some kind of solution.”

Nancy Dallett, associate director of the Office for Veteran and Military Academic Engagement, believes this program is a piece of the healing puzzle. Dallett said transitioning from military service to civilian life is rife with life-changing opportunities and challenges. Members of the military are part of a large mission, they train and serve in an intensely hierarchal system, live a very structured life and form close bonds with one another. As civilians, they lose that camaraderie, especially in academic life.

“After sending student-veterans to the Rockies for several years, we heard from the participants, without exception, that the experience was profound, transformative and inspiring for them,” Dallett said. “In turn, they inspired us to collaborate with Huts for Vets and experiment whether we could increase opportunities for more student-veterans closer to home in Arizona's magnificent landscapes.”

It sounded great, but the timing wasn’t good. The COVID-19 pandemic weighed heavy on everyone’s minds, said Manuel G. Aviles-Santiago, director of the Office for Veteran and Military Academic Engagement.

"In spite of COVID-19 we pushed ahead, and with the help of experts throughout ASU we put in place health and safety protocols to protect the participants and enable the program to happen,” Aviles-Santiago said.  

Before any of the 14 participants met in Tonto National Forest, they took a COVID-19 test. Many of them were able to take advantage of the rapid saliva test made available through The Biodesign Institute at all four ASU campuses. No one tested positive and they were able to interact freely during the wilderness journey. The crew was also tested when they got back to ASU as an additional protocol. All of the results came back negative.

The goal of the retreat was to establish a familiarity with the Huts for Vets methodology so it can be replicated for a target audience of military-affiliated students, staff and faculty at ASU.

Andersen did a pilot run with 14 military-affiliated members of the ASU community in the Tonto National Forest, where ASU will schedule a full retreat with student-veterans in spring 2021. The purpose of this trip was to train future advisers and facilitators who can employ nature-based discussions as a retention strategy for veterans in their post-traumatic growth journey.

The training session was necessary, said Michelle Loposky, assistant director of Outreach and Engagement for ASU’s Pat Tillman Veterans Center.

“This first trip is mostly for people in academia because we wanted to examine all of the intricate things and different layers before it’s presented to the student-veterans,” said Loposky, a former U.S. Army combat field medic who was deployed after the Bosnian war in the Stabilization Force humanitarian efforts in Bosnia and Herzegovina. “We want our program to be purposeful because we want it to also be impactful. We want our student-veterans who just got out to need this even if they don’t think they need it. They’ll walk away saying, ‘I’m glad I did this.’”

Dan Shilling, a Vietnam veteran who has served on several committees and commissions at ASU, said he was glad he did it as well. An avid hiker, sustainability instructor and author, Shilling believes the forest setting is conducive to veterans.

“Nature doesn’t judge because nature is so welcoming,” said Shilling, who was given the Distinguished Alumnus Award by ASU in 2005 for his service to the school and state. “The setting paired with the readings serve as a springboard. They seem to open a window and from there, the emotions just seem to flow out.”

But it took time to get to that place.

The first morning commenced with an 8-mile hike along the Mogollon Rim, which started at the Pine Trailhead and finished seven hours later at Camp Geronimo. The hike offered spectacular views of Arizona’s vistas, which can reach up to 7,000 feet. It was interspersed with plenty of stops for reading and discussion sessions based on the works of writers and poets such as Henry David Thoreau, Edward Abbey, Robert Frost, Cara Hoffman, Viktor Franki, Auden Schendler, and Chief Luther Standing Bear. The idea is to elicit philosophical musings as a means of exploring issues many veterans face, while also allowing unstructured conversations during the course of the trip.

“There’s always this awkwardness when you start because many of us did not know each other when we started the hike,” said Shawn Banzhaf, a senior military advocate at ASU’s Pat Tillman Veterans Center who participated in the two previous Huts for Vets programs in the wilderness near Aspen. “Out on the trail you start to have these really in-depth conversations and you find out what people are passionate about. By about the third day, it’s like you’re long-lost friends, battle buddies.

“The idea is for our student-veterans to go on this wilderness journey so they can start the semester with a battle buddy.”

The days that followed were filled with group hikes, solo meditations, further readings and discussions, group meals, nightly campfires, and ideally, a sense of esprit de corps.

For Patricia Murphy, a poet, author and principal lecturer with the College of Integrative Sciences and Arts, the goal of the trip was different.

“I wasn’t here to teach. I was a student and I was very deliberate in that,” said Murphy, founding editor of Superstition Review, ASU’s online literary magazine. “I’m here to connect with others and understand their trauma and their experiences. I came here to be more present for those who need me.”

That included Cruz, whose transformation by the end of the trip was palpable to everyone, including himself.

“For a few years I’ve been walking around with this inner turmoil inside of my head and many veterans are like me. We don’t often talk to people about our problems because either we think they can’t relate or we’ll be judged,” Cruz said. “Having that human connection with other veterans allows you to feel understood, so you feel more comfortable and allow yourself to breathe and relax.

“This experience opened up a lot of feelings and emotions that I had down deep. Sometimes veterans just need a positive push. Everyone from this trip is going away with something positive, and I just love that they gave each of us that seed.”

Top photo: Veterans sit together at the side of Webber Creek to discuss service and returning to civilian life along with several other subjects on Oct. 31, 2020. Huts for Vets organized an Arizona experience including veterans and civilians for a program of hiking, readings and discussions near Camp Geronimo outside of Payson, Arizona, on the Mogollon Rim. Photo by Deanna Dent/ASU